Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Skating on low ice

Today wasn't the best for ice (and it was snowing) but was good for the goalies, I made like ten amazing saves and and a lot of other ok ones. Kev loves it when I am in nets. He says its because its an actual challenge. I took a stick in the chin and like ten hard shots to the legs. other then that it was fun.

Another joke.

Here lies bill
Looked up the mine shaft to see if the cart was coming....... it was.


I think anyone who likes Ottawa Senators should hang their heads in shame for them. last night they were beat 5 to 0, and here comes the worst part. by Toronto!!!!!!!!!! of all the teams to lose to. why the last in the league.
I think that if they keep this up, Montreal will get its first place in the division. From what I've seen Montreal deserves that place.


Eastern Conference
Rank
GP W L
OT Pts GF GA Home Away L10
1 New Jersey Devils* 63 37 21
5 79 170 148 21-11-1 16-10-4 7-1-2
2 Ottawa Senators* 63 36 21
6 78 210 188 19-12-3 17-9-3 4-4-2
3 Carolina Hurricanes* 65 32 28
5 69 194 207 17-11-3 15-17-2 6-3-1
4 Pittsburgh Penguins 63 35 21
7 77 186 171 18-10-5 17-11-2 6-2-2
5 Montréal Canadiens 63 33 21
9 75 196 180 14-12-5 19-9-4 5-5-0
6 New York Rangers 64 32 24
8 72 166 158 20-13-0 12-11-8 6-2-2
7 Boston Bruins 61 32 23
6 70 165 167 14-12-3 18-11-3 5-4-1
8 Philadelphia Flyers 63 31 25
7 69 192 182 13-12-6 18-13-1 1-7-2

9 Buffalo Sabres 63 30 24
9 69 188 178 16-10-4 14-14-5 5-3-2
10 New York Islanders 63 30 26
7 67 156 180 17-12-3 13-14-4 6-3-1
11 Washington Capitals 63 28 27
8 64 177 196 15-13-3 13-14-5 4-3-3
12 Toronto Maple Leafs 64 27 28
9 63 177 200 16-12-5 11-16-4 6-4-0
13 Florida Panthers 65 28 30
7 63 175 189 12-12-6 16-18-1 3-5-2
14 Atlanta Thrashers 63 29 30
4 62 169 203 16-14-2 13-16-2 5-5-0
15 Tampa Bay Lightning 62 25 30
7 57 177 203 15-15-2 10-15-5 4-4-2

this is the standings of NHL for this conference.

Eastern Conference
ATLANTIC GP W L
OT Pts GF GA Home Away L10
New Jersey Devils 63 37 21
5 79 170 148 21-11-1 16-10-4 7-1-2
Pittsburgh Penguins 63 35 21
7 77 186 171 18-10-5 17-11-2 6-2-2
New York Rangers 64 32 24
8 72 166 158 20-13-0 12-11-8 6-2-2
Philadelphia Flyers 63 31 25
7 69 192 182 13-12-6 18-13-1 1-7-2
New York Islanders 63 30 26
7 67 156 180 17-12-3 13-14-4 6-3-1
NORTHEAST GP W L
OT Pts GF GA Home Away L10
Ottawa Senators 63 36 21
6 78 210 188 19-12-3 17-9-3 4-4-2
Montréal Canadiens 63 33 21
9 75 196 180 14-12-5 19-9-4 5-5-0
Boston Bruins 61 32 23
6 70 165 167 14-12-3 18-11-3 5-4-1
Buffalo Sabres 63 30 24
9 69 188 178 16-10-4 14-14-5 5-3-2
Toronto Maple Leafs 64 27 28
9 63 177 200 16-12-5 11-16-4 6-4-0
SOUTHEAST GP W L
OT Pts GF GA Home Away L10
Carolina Hurricanes 65 32 28
5 69 194 207 17-11-3 15-17-2 6-3-1
Washington Capitals 63 28 27
8 64 177 196 15-13-3 13-14-5 4-3-3
Florida Panthers 65 28 30
7 63 175 189 12-12-6 16-18-1 3-5-2
Atlanta Thrashers 63 29 30
4 62 169 203 16-14-2 13-16-2 5-5-0
Tampa Bay Lightning 62 25 30
7 57 177 203 15-15-2 10-15-5 4-4-2

here is the divisions.
as you can see Toronto is last in its division and 12 in the league. if Ottawa can lose to them. something is off.

Pre-post

I am sorry for not writing very often. I find it harder to find things to write about so I will put this and write more after skating.


Joke of the day

here lies rob, if not please tell the undertaker at once.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Few things the happened.

I had a good time looking after Eva and Jacob, they were a hard couple of kids at times. I get how real parents feel with there kids. One would push or grab something the other would get upset and cry. then it would change to the other kid crying, after a bit I would get them to say sorry and a normal thing for Eva is to hug after. well that didn't end well, she ended up pushing Jacob over in the process into something. well after that we got to more fun things with blocks and building things. and then i tried to get them to rest but that didn't work Eva got bored as she said and found something else to do, and in doing that woke up Jacob. and other starts the whole thing of one wanting what the other has. I got through the day ok but tired and wondering how a babysitter can find time to go to the bathroom with two kids running around.


I'm still trying to upload a video for this but its not working and its just wasting time. I would've put a funny Zelda video on. but it wouldn't let me. or anything else. I may try again some other time.


I've been kicked off the online games for the days and can only play at night now, even if there is church or something I only get at night, and Saturdays. after the days work though, never before with my dad. And I have to do more things around the house and more studying.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Head aches and Raisins

I have a head ache that can only be reduced by having tea and raisins and sleeping. Which is all good to me. But the wood stove kind of ruins me. and makes me feel even worse. I would write another poem but. I can't think right to do it. maybe tomorrow or something.

I think tonight, after bible time I will listen to my hockey team play. Read my book some more. I found it to be very interesting. I don't know if I will go to work tomorrow. I was going to but. with this head ache and the weather. it makes it more questionable. I also have some what of a high temp. I really don't want to be sick again. makes me do nothing, makes me miss things. I'm not the kind of person that can take staying in one place for the day. I can't sleep in the day. I can't rest. And I have been thinking about my Gramma, I don't know how much longer she has, and with all the deaths I have been alive for in my family. It hurts, I ruins my work life, it ruins the way I act. And its another thing that can only be shown by telling someone else. So please pray for me and my gramma and family.


here is a song that goes threw my head in the day. With all the preaching and teaching going around this keeps coming up in my mind. What Pastor preached today was good.


Be Thou My Vision

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Trying to write

I've always had a problem at writing in a matter of spelling and how to word things. I've never really wanted to write anything or do anything that had to do with writing. I thought well whats the point of writing a report if I'm the only one going to read it and its already in my head. I've found that this blog has given me a way to talk and write more. and I've not really ever had any problem with it. maybe not known what to write but thats it.

Why and When

Why do I stand here not in awe
Why do I forget the things I saw
When it so wonderfully was made
When it was so wonderfully was paid


Why can't I see this creation as great
Why can't I walk this road straight
When will my heart love it all
When will I rejoice at his call


Why can't I cry at mens sin
Why can't I feel its pain within
When will my heart be soft
When will it change to feel aloft


Some times I feel this way and other times it does hurt a lot when I see sin in others lives, but to me, I say "not enough".

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I Don't know what to write.

My mom said that I'm not writing enough on my blog so this is a forced post that I am going to have to think up on the spot.


Its a snow day today. Which is good, and bad. The bad is I have to shovel, The good is no school.
Here are some ways to shovel.
#1: Shovel with your back not your knees.
#2: Be smart and use your knees and your back to help throw it.
#3: Ask the neighbours to do it. (I know lots of people who do this)
#4: Beg the neighbour with the snow blower.
#5: Do it with a Friend to get it done quicker.
#6: Use your knees as a fulcrum to lift the snow higher and with more strength.


Yesterday I watched a movie at Steve's, I don't remember what it was called. It was about a submarine and it crew who are meant to send a marker to where a nuke will be placed at Russia in the cold war. They get in a water fight and win but have a hole in the bottom of the sub. They send men down to fix it but its not working. and the water keeps coming in. there was someone at the top waiting for them. but he was told to get the men out before they all die from water. But one of the parts of the wall flies out and hits one of them in the face, with a lot of force behind it. From what I understand and from the blood coming out of his face underwater. I say he died and the top guy closed the hatch like he was commanded too. almost to late too. It was kind of weird but the story it self looked pretty cool. I dislike the blood part but other then that it the movie wasn't that bad. Later on in it there is a mutiny and half of the crew joins the others and tries sending the nuke without the states telling them too. because of the radio being down. I didn't get to watch the rest of it. It was already 10 so I had to go.


Steve and I are most likely going to have to change back and forth in shoveling driveways. I think he is coming right now so I should be getting ready.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Roman Mythology

Before I start I want everyone to know that these are a lot the same. with different names. If you look closely you should be able to see the differences.

Apollo
Apollo is the son of Jupiter and Leto, and the twin brother of Diana . He is the god of music, playing a golden lyre. The Archer, far shooting with a silver bow. The god of healing who taught man medicine. The god of light. The god of truth, who can not speak a lie. One of Apollo's more important daily tasks is to harness his chariot with four horses an drive the Sun across the sky. He is famous for his oracle at Delphi. People traveled to it from all over the Greek world to divine the future. His tree was the laurel. The crow his bird. The dolphin his animal.

Ceres
Corn Goddess. Eternal Mother. the Sorrowing Mother. Grain Mother. Goddess of agriculture, grain, crops, initiation, civilization, lawgiver and the love a mother bears for her child. Protectress of women, motherhood, marriage. Daughter of Saturn and Ops. She and her daughter Proserpine were the counterparts of the Greek goddesses Demeter and Persephone. Her worship involved fertility rites and rites for the dead, and her chief festival was the Cerealia.

Diana
Fertility Goddess. Moon Goddess. Huntress Goddess. Triple Goddess- Lunar Virgin, Mother of Creatures, the Huntress or Destroyer. Goddess of nature, fertility, childbirth, wildwood, moon, forests, animals, mountains, woods, and women. Goddess of the hunt. In Roman art Diana usually appears as a huntress with bow and arrow, along with a hunting dog or a stag. Both a virgin goddess and an earth goddess, she was identified with the Greek Artemis. She is praised for her strength, athletic grace, beauty and her hunting skills. With two other deities she made up a trinity: Egeria the water nymph (her servant and assistant midwife), and Virbius (the woodland god).

Juno
Queen of the Gods. Jupiters wife and sister, sister to Neptune and Pluto, daughter of Saturn, mother of Juventas, Mars, and Vulcan. Protectress of the Roman state. She was the guardian of the Empire's finances and considered the Matron Goddess of all Rome. The Matronalia, her major festival is March 1-2. Her other festival, on July 7-8, was called Nonae Caprotinae ("The Nones of the Wild Fig"). The month of June was named after her.

Jupiter
Ruler of the Gods. He is the god of Sky, Lightning and Thunder. He is the son of Saturn and brother of Neptune, Pluto and Juno, who is also his wife. His attribute is the lightning bolt and his symbol the eagle, who is also his messenger. He was also considered the Patron god of Rome, and his temple was the official place of state business and sacrifices.

Mars
God of war, spring, growth in nature, agriculture, terror, anger, revenge, courage and fertility. Protector of cattle. The son of Jupiter and Juno, he was the god of war. Mars was regarded as the father of the Roman people because he was the father of Romulus, the legendary founder of Rome, and husband to Bellona. He was the most prominent of the military gods that were worshipped by the Roman legions. The martial Romans considered him second in importance only to Jupiter. His festivals were held in March (named for him) and October.

Mercury
God of Trade, Profit, Merchants and Travellers. His main festival, the Mercuralia, was celebrated on May 15 and on this day the merchants sprinkled their heads and their merchandise with water from his well near the Porta Capena. The symbols of Mercury are the caduceus (a staff with two intertwined snakes) and a purse (a symbol of his connection with commerce).

Minerva
Goddess of Wisdom, Learning, the Arts, Sciences, Medicine, Dyeing, Trade, and of War. Daughter of Jupiter, protectress of commerce, industry and education. Honored at the spring equinox with her main festival, March 19 - 23, called the Quinquatria. On June 13 the minor Quinquatrus was observed.

Neptune
God of the Sea. Brother of Jupiter, Pluto and Juno. The God and patron of Horses and Horse Racing as Neptune Equester. Neptunalia was celebrated on July 23. The trident is Neptune's attribute.

Venus
Originally a Goddess of Gardens and Vinyards, Venus became the major deity of love and beauty after the influx of Greek deities. On August 18 the Vinalia Rustica was observed. A second festival, that of the Veneralia, was celebrated on April 1 in honor of Venus Verticordia, who later became the protector against vice. On April 23 a festival, the Vinalia Priora, celebrated the opening of one of her temples.

Vesta
Goddess of the Fire (both sacred and domestic) and the Hearth. Daughter of Saturn and Ops. Her sacred animal was the ass. Patroness of bakers. Her chief festival was the Vestalia on June 7. One of the most worshipped of the Roman deities.

Vulcan
God of Fire, Blacksmiths and Craftsmanship. His forge is located beneath Mount Etna. It is here that he, together with his helpers, forges weapons for Gods and heroes. Closely associated with Bona Dea with whom he shared the Volcanalia, observed on August 23.


Well thats it and I hope you can see the differences. There are like 50 minor gods as well but I don't want to list them.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Greek mythology

I said that sometime I would put up something on my blog about Greek and Roman mythology. SO this is that post. and just so no dumb questions are asked I do not believe any of it, It is just interesting to look at and learn about.


Zeus was the god of the sky and ruler of the Olympian gods. Zeus overthew his Father Cronus. He then drew lots with his brothers Poseidon and Hades. Zeus won the draw and became the supreme ruler of the gods. He is lord of the sky, the rain god. His weapon is a thunderbolt which he hurls at those who displease him. He is married to Hera but, is famous for his many affairs. He is also known to punish those that lie or break oaths.He was the rain god, and the cloud gatherer, who wielded the terrible thunderbolt. His breastplate was the aegis, his bird the eagle, his tree the oak. He is represented as the god of justice and mercy, the protector of the weak, and the punisher of the wicked.



God of the sea, protector of all waters. Poseidon is the brother of Zeus. After the overthow of their Father Cronus he drew lots with Zeus and Hades, another brother, for shares of the world. His prize was to become lord of the sea. He was widely worshiped by seamen. He married Amphitrite, a granddaughter of the Titan Oceanus.At one point he desired Demeter. To put him off Demeter asked him to make the most beautiful animal that the world had ever seen. So to impress her Poseidon created the first horse. In some accounts his first attempts were unsucessful and created a varity of other animals in his quest. By the time the horse was created his passion for Demeter had cooled.

His weapon is a trident, which can shake the earth, and shatter any object. He is second only to Zeus in power amongst the gods. He has a difficult quarrelsome personality. He was greedy. He had a series of disputes with other gods when he tried to take over their cities.


Hades is the brother of Zeus. After the overthow of their Father Cronus he drew lots with Zeus and Poseidon, another brother, for shares of the world. He had the worst draw and was made lord of the underworld, ruling over the dead. He is a greedy god who is greatly concerned with increasing his subjects. Those whose calling increase the number of dead are seen favorably. The Erinnyes are welcomed guests. He is exceedingly disinclined to allow any of his subjects leave.

He is also the god of wealth, due to the precious metals mined from the earth. He has a helmet that makes him invisable. He rarely leaves the underworld. He is unpitying and terrible, but not capricious. His wife is Persephone whom Hades abducted. He is the King of the dead but, death itself is another god, Thanatos.


Hestia is Zeus sister. She is a virgin goddess. She does not have a distinct personality. She plays no part in myths. She is the Goddess of the Hearth, the symbol of the house around which a new born child is carried before it is received into the family.Each city had a public hearth sacred to Hestia, where the fire was never allowed to go out. Of all the Olympians, she is the mildest, most upright and most charitable.

Hebe is the daughter of Zeus and Hera. She is the goddess of youth. She, along with Ganymede are the cupbearers to the gods. Hebe is Hercules wife.


Ares is the son of Zeus and Hera. He was disliked by both parents. He is the god of war. He is considered murderous and bloodstained but, also a coward. When caught in an act of adultery with Aphrodite her husband Hephaestus is able publically ridicule him. His bird is the vulture. His animal is the dog.


Athena is the Greek virgin goddess of reason, intelligent activity, arts and literature. Athena is the daughter of Zeus. She sprang full grown in armour from his forehead, thus has no mother. She is fierce and brave in battle but, only wars to defined the state and home from outside enemies. She is the goddess of the city, handicrafts, and agriculture. She invented the bridle, which permitted man to tame horses, the trumpet, the flute, the pot, the rake, the plow, the yoke, the ship, and the chariot. She is the embodiment of wisdom, reason, and purity. She was Zeus's favorite child and was allowed to use his weapons including his thunderbolt. Her favorite city is Athens. Her tree is the olive. The owl is her bird. She is a virgin goddess.


Apollo is the son of Zeus and Leto. His twin sister is Artemis. He is the god of music, playing a golden lyre. The Archer, far shooting with a silver bow. The god of healing who taught man medicine. The god of light. The god of truth, who can not speak a lie.

One of Apollo's more importaint daily tasks is to harness his chariot with four horses an drive the Sun across the sky.

He is famous for his oracle at Delphi. People travled to it from all over the greek world to devine the future.

His tree was the laurel. The crow his bird. The dolphin his animal.


Aphrodite is the goddess of love, desire and beauty. In addition to her natural gifts she has a magical girdle that compels anyone she wishes to desire her. There are two accounts of her birth. I am not going to tell you how these were. or post them. not to great.

He was the cleverest of the Olympian gods, and messenger to all the other gods.

Hermes is the son of Zeus and Maia. He is Zeus messenger. He is the fastest of the gods. He wears winged sandals, a winged hat, and carries a magic wand. He is the god of thieves and god of commerce. He is the guide for the dead to go to the underworld. He invented the lyre, the pipes, the musical scale, astronomy , weights and measures, boxing, gymnastics, and the care of olive trees.



She was goddess of chastity, virginity, the hunt, the moon, and the natural environment. Artemis is the daughter of Zeus and Leto. Her twin brother is Apollo. She is the lady of the wild things. She is the huntsman of the gods. She is the protector of the young. Like Apollo she hunts with silver arrows. She became associated with the moon. She is a virgin goddess, and the goddess of chastity. She also presides over childbirth, which may seem odd for a virgin, but goes back to causing Leto no pain when she was born. She became associated with Hecate. The cypress is her tree. All wild animals are scared to her, especially the deer.


Hephaestus is the son of Zeus and Hera. Sometimes it is said that Hera alone produced him and that he has no father. He is the only god to be physically ugly. He is also lame. Accounts as to how he became lame vary. Some say that Hera,upset by having an ugly child, flung him from Mount Olympus into the sea, breaking his legs. Others that he took Hera's side in an arguement with Zeus and Zeus flung him off Mount Olympus. He is the god of fire and the forge. He is the smith and armorer of the gods. He uses a volcano as his forge. He is the patron god of both smiths and weavers. He is kind and peace loving. His wife is Aphrodite. Sometimes his wife is identified as Aglaia.

Well that was a long post and a lot of writing. And that isn't all of it either. But I'm going to go into detail but it so thats all on the Greek. I will write the roman side tomorrow

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

The real way to play Hockey

Today was a one of the best games of hockey I have ever played. Even if the ice wasn't to good. It still was fun, I think I made to many nice plays with to little goals.(Thanks a lot Sarah). Now that thats out. I am going to end this part with this. Sarah I hope you like snow balls. Because you might get more then you can handle. Hockey on open ice with holes and weak spots is what makes it all the more fun. People are everywhere and falling over and playing there best. It is fun and I think I want more of that and free skate at the arena.


I got the name of my friend online.(Scott). That was good. So please pray for him. and me as I talk to him through the scriptures. He would tell me that if I prayed with a open heart that God would show me that the B.O.M. is true. But God does not let His people go astray. When God comes into your life, Your heart is no longer open. He opens it for Him and closes it once He is in. I am in Him and there is nothing that God will let into my life that would ever say that the Bible is not correct or has mistakes.


I would like thank God for this. My Dad has found my wallet. Which is great help to me. It was in the car as I thought.


I told Sarah and Elijah that my rubber band is for protection. But that is only part of it. I also have it as I reminder about what God has done. When I think of doing anything that would be sin I have it as a reminder that its wrong. I think I will need to get a tighter one so it doesn't fall off my arm.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Mormon Friend Online

I just found out today that one of my friend online is a Mormon. We had a 2 hours and 45 minutes talk. wow it was good. I got to use my learning from Sundayschool and my Bible to talk to him. He wouldn't leave the fact of the Bible being only correct as it is translated. I was being on the matter of God and Jesus and how there book changes and how are Book is the only prophecy from God. That there is no other. that any other book about God that doesn't agree with the Bible is false. But I didn't get through sadly hopefully I will be able to talk to him again. He said at the end of the talk that he ends his testimony. so hopefully doesn't mean that he won't let me talk to him anymore. I believe and pray that God will use what I said to him to bring him to the scriptures. Sorry this is all I'm writing today.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Songs of help

I thought about writing something that would be interesting but nothing came to me. And with the things I have already written. I can't write. But here are some songs of help.


Amazing Grace

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed!

Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.

When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.



At Calvary


Years I spent in vanity and pride,
Caring not my Lord was crucified,
Knowing not it was for me He died on Calvary.

Refrain

Mercy there was great, and grace was free;
Pardon there was multiplied to me;
There my burdened soul found liberty at Calvary.

By God’s Word at last my sin I learned;
Then I trembled at the law I’d spurned,
Till my guilty soul imploring turned to Calvary.

Refrain

Now I’ve given to Jesus everything,
Now I gladly own Him as my King,
Now my raptured soul can only sing of Calvary!

Refrain

Oh, the love that drew salvation’s plan!
Oh, the grace that brought it down to man!
Oh, the mighty gulf that God did span at Calvary!

Refrain


Be Thou My Vision


Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.


For those who have not guessed it. I love music and it is one of the things that keeps me going through all my lives problems. When I look at the hymns so wonderfully written. It just makes me want to stop singing for a bit and just read. because it has so much great things written in them of God. Its the same for Is Word. Its so wonderfully written that you have to read it over and over again. Just to get it all in.

Yay skipping ahead in history to something more interesting

My mom just jumped me in history to the ww1 and I find it was good because I had already done the middle ages so I get to skip the boring parts in history that would never help me in the future unless I was in some question show. Which I don't plan on being in.


I try talking to people and I don't give up on them but when you've said the the same thing about not assuming almost your whole life and no one listens. Its hard for me to talk to anyone without it. The only people in my family I can talk to without problems is my mom and Chris. Which to me is too little in my family. Its like I have to be so careful with how I talk to them but they can make fun of me all they want. I say one thing and it sets off something they have never gotten over yet. And I get in trouble but no If its to me I can't say a thing. Understanding of one another is something I am trying to get of people and all I get is people guessing what I meant and assuming. Sometimes I feel like not talking to anyone anymore because of that. Sort of the feeling that makes me want to go to my room and hide for a bit. But being me I can't do that I never want to give up on people and I never want to chicken out of these things because its helping me out for the future. I'm not happy with being in the basement away from everything I can't hide and stay to my self. Its like there is things that can't stay inside me and I need someone to talk to but they aren't there. I've found more understanding in my friends than my own family sometimes. Which is another reason I like going to church because I have the whole family and preaching there. Its helps me a lot more than I can explain.


There I said it to more then just my mom so if people have any help or anything. It would be useful.